Have you ever seen the movie "50 First Dates"? Men, bear with me here as I dive into the romantic comedy world for a moment. Henry is a guy afraid of commitment, until he meets Lucy. Lucy, however, has an interesting problem. She suffers from short term memory loss, which means even though she too becomes fond of Henry after meeting him, she wakes up the next day and can't even remember who he is. The whole movie is based on Henry's tactics to help Lucy fall in love with him all over again each day. The end of the movie shows this incredibly sweet scene of Lucy waking up each morning to a video Henry has created documenting their life together. Although she wakes up confused, by watching that short video, each day Lucy is again reminded of who she is and how loved she is.
A few weeks ago during a great night of conversation with our small group, the Lord brought this movie to my mind as I felt him saying to me "You're like Lucy". A reference to “50 First Dates” is not what I was expecting to hear from the Lord that night. But you see, I'm a forgetful person. WE are a forgetful people. The God of the universe sent His great Love in the form of Jesus to live right here on Earth with us. Then Jesus, after suffering the crucifixion, and defeating death in His resurrection, says to his disciples in John 14 that after he returns to His Father: "...the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and REMIND you of everything I have said to you." Our Father knows we are forgetful. Just take a read through Genesis and Exodus. Sometimes it's easy for us to read those great stories and think seriously...why couldn't the Israelites get it together? I mean there was manna, and they walked through a sea for pete's sake. But how often in our own lives do we forget the power and the freedom and the identity that has been given to us through Jesus?
I don't know about you, but there are more days than I'd like to admit that I wake up confused. The lies, the doubts, and the insecurities that Satan wants me to buy into flood my mind. And too many times I let my mind dwell there, questioning things I've heard God say to me, and angry with myself for being in that place again. After all, if I'm really a good Christian I shouldn't feel that way, right? I love Jesus, He loves me, life should be easy, let's move on. That's how I want it to feel. But that is so not the reality. The truth is that the enemy wants to defeat us. He wants us to feel like we're not actually good enough at ________________ (fill in the blank) to be Christ's representatives here on Earth. But as I frequently tell my own children, feelings don’t dictate truth.
Thanks to our loving Father, we have a highlight reel...our own truth video we can play and replay in our hearts every morning, and as many times as we need to throughout each day. We have the Holy Spirit ... Jesus ... our Father ... living right here inside of us. Ready to remind us of who we are, and how loved we are. The script of His video to us isn't long. It's just a few words. But they can quiet the confusion and still the doubts if we listen for them over the noise of the enemy and our own human thoughts.
You are mine. You are loved. You always have been, and you always will be. Nothing can take you from me. And nothing can take me from you. Trust me when you don’t feel like enough. My strength is made perfect in your weakness. You are my child, and I am so proud to call you mine.
I really am a lot like Lucy. All too often I forget what Jesus came to reconcile. He sealed the deal on who I am. His blood makes me forever God’s child. Our Father never stops pursuing us and loving us. We just need to seek the Holy Spirit to be reminded of it. When those defeating thoughts and insecurities begin to creep in, it’s not because He has gone anywhere. We’ve just been watching the wrong video. So instead of beating ourselves up for feeling that way yet again, let’s choose to hit play on God’s love letter to us instead. And begin to confidently walk as His children, knowing who we are and that with Him, we have the power to go out into the world and be His love letter to those around us.